OMG That sinking feeling when you walk into the door at work and you’re engulfed in a sea of negativity!!! Let me paint you a picture
The downward turn at the corners of every single person in the room the slumped over shoulders of each employee, the blatantly obvious cringe when a co-worker opens their mouth to speak.
This environment MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM!!! I am not a positive person naturally I’ve had to work to get to this point of optimism in my life and what I’ve discovered in my journey to my own personal bliss is its worth it!!! I get the energy I put out into the universe sent right back. So working in this environment is suffocating and disappointing.
I do not mind a challenge, I relish competitiveness to be quite honest I thrive under a challenging, competitive circumstances. None of these are bad qualities to have what turns these things into bad things is when you tear another person down in your own version of “competitiveness” then its no longer competitiveness it is at this point I find it to be hurtful, demeaning and plain ridiculous!!! This office thrives off this sort of ridiculousness.
My colleague insists on tearing others down to buildup her own self declared importance, she denies others the opportunities to be an independent part of the team. I find myself being less productive as a result of her actions (which is my own fault for allowing her to dictate my own worth in my position). Another colleague while exremely knowledgeable in her position as a QA she is ignorant to the concept of professional courtesy and education. If an error is made on anyones part I’d view that as an opportune time for education on the subject. If you educate people of their error in a non-condescending manner that makes others want to slam the door in your face just at the thought of you opening your mouth then you would be far more productive in your position. Well that is what would make sense to me in my opinion.
What come tot he realization through my own self evaluation I can see clearer the error in my ways. EVERYTHING is a choice in life I can choose to sit here and continue to complain about how much I hate entering into this office day in and day out or I can make a change.
I can choose to remain her and be miserable and allow these people to suck my happiness out of me on a daily basis.
I can choose to ignore the petty efforts of these people who’s own personal issues have created the negative beings that they are and continue to work here and work on becoming the positive being I was placed on this earth to be.
I can choose to leave all this behind and start fresh at one of the other places I’ve been offered a position at in hopes of not encountering this same environment just with different persons… in other words same poop different color.
Which one will I chose? I have no idea Friday is going to be a big day for me it will be a big factor in my decision.
But for now I give thanks that I am wonderfully made. I am truly blessed in so many ways and I will need to hold true to that!!!