Negative energy

OMG That sinking feeling when you walk into the door at work and you’re engulfed in a sea of negativity!!! Let me paint you a picture

The downward turn at the corners of every single person in the room the slumped over shoulders of each employee, the blatantly obvious cringe when a co-worker opens their mouth to speak. 

This environment MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM!!! I am not a positive person naturally I’ve had to work to get to this point of optimism in my life and what I’ve discovered in my journey to my own personal bliss is its worth it!!! I get the energy I put out into the universe sent right back. So working in this environment is suffocating and disappointing. 

I do not mind a challenge, I relish competitiveness to be quite honest I thrive under a challenging, competitive circumstances. None of these are bad qualities to have what turns these things into bad things is when you tear another person down in your own version of “competitiveness” then its no longer competitiveness it is at this point I find it to be hurtful, demeaning and plain ridiculous!!! This office thrives off this sort of ridiculousness.

My colleague insists on tearing others down to buildup her own self declared importance, she denies others the opportunities to be an independent part of the team. I find myself being less productive as a result of her actions (which is my own fault for allowing her to dictate my own worth in my position). Another colleague while exremely knowledgeable in her position as a QA she is ignorant to the concept of professional courtesy and education. If an error is made on anyones part I’d view that as an opportune time for education on the subject. If you educate people of their error in a non-condescending manner that makes others want to slam the door in your face just at the thought of you opening your mouth then you would be far more productive in your position. Well that is what would make sense to me in my opinion.

What come tot he realization through my own self evaluation I can see clearer the error in my ways. EVERYTHING is a choice in life I can choose to sit here and continue to complain about how much I hate entering into this office day in and day out or I can make a change.

I can choose to remain her and be miserable and allow these people to suck my happiness out of me on a daily basis.
I can choose to ignore the petty efforts of these people who’s own personal issues have created the negative beings that they are and continue to work here and work on becoming the positive being I was placed on this earth to be.
I can choose to leave all this behind and start fresh at one of the other places I’ve been offered a position at in hopes of not encountering this same environment just with different persons… in other words same poop different color.

Which one will I chose? I have no idea Friday is going to be a big day for me it will be a big factor in my decision. 

But for now I give thanks that I am wonderfully made. I am truly blessed in so many ways and I will need to hold true to that!!!

21 DAY

Commitment.

I’ve been tinkering with the idea of becoming a life coach, everyone and their mother seems to come to me for advice and I’m great at it. I always seem to be able to get people back on track help them find their way back to the path they had originally been pushing themselves toward—- I just give them that little boost/ kick in the rear to get back on track.

I need to practice what I preach. So today I’m committing to 21 days of focus!!! ***No fast food, No procrastination, No negativity*** (no negativity—- is going to be the hardest one for me to commit to) I’m a worrier I hold onto my stress and I mull things over and anticipate the worst (my cryptonite).

I’m going to use exercise to help clear my mind and organization to ward of the chaos. “Organization and exercise” will be my weapons of choice to make this happen- I am a warrior in the battle for success and happiness. I’m going to plan my meals out for the week, I’m going to keep my house, my car and basically my life organized. I have to stay on top of things in order to prevent that overwhelming feeling that comes with chaos. I will chronicle my 21 days. In the infamously (annoying words of my mother)  ”Co-Mit-Ment, Co-Mit-Ment, Co-Mit-Ment” (And yes I know thats not how you spell commitment) haha

 

Source PinterestToday I’m thankful for Love and family. I am blessed to have grown up surrounded by love from my parents and all four of my siblings. In 49 days from today I will be adding to my family a HUSBAND and his family.3 sister in-laws and a mother and father in-law. My circle of trust is expanding!!! 

This weekend is our Marriage retreat I can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together I love my OSITO!!! 49 Days tick tock…

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Today I’m thankful for Love and family. I am blessed to have grown up surrounded by love from my parents and all four of my siblings. In 49 days from today I will be adding to my family a HUSBAND and his family.3 sister in-laws and a mother and father in-law. My circle of trust is expanding!!! 

This weekend is our Marriage retreat I can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together I love my OSITO!!! 49 Days tick tock…

I’m only this far in life because God loves me!!! I’m grateful and humbled by how much I have to be appreciative for. Today I woke-up that in itself is enough to strive for GREATNESS today!!! Yes today I must go to work, but what do I not have to do that I owe it to my creator to show my appreciation for his allowing me to live another day?!?! 
I think I will spend the evening after work with my fiance—- Make a healthy meal and go for a walk with my one true love… This is how I can show appreciation today for the day I’ve been given. God bless and Happy January 2nd y’all!!!

I’m only this far in life because God loves me!!! I’m grateful and humbled by how much I have to be appreciative for. Today I woke-up that in itself is enough to strive for GREATNESS today!!! Yes today I must go to work, but what do I not have to do that I owe it to my creator to show my appreciation for his allowing me to live another day?!?! 

I think I will spend the evening after work with my fiance—- Make a healthy meal and go for a walk with my one true love… This is how I can show appreciation today for the day I’ve been given. God bless and Happy January 2nd y’all!!!

Happy New Year! ! ! This is our year. Boom 2014 

2014

Goodbye 2013 HELLLLLLLLLLLO 2014!!! 

I’m very excited to start a new year and a new journey… I will be a married woman and God willing a student again… I would like to use my tubmlr as the forum to document my journey I don’t know anyone on here personally so I can be open and free with my words, pictures and self improvement aspirations. Successes and failures. Cheers to goodbyes and hellos 

Resolutions:

  • Be a good wife
    -be romantically involved and committed to my one true love (Osito), commit to being a support system and not allow petty differences/ others become involved in our relationship, enjoy learning about one another and live in the moment.
  • Learn to say “No” and be ok with it.
  • Learn to say “Yes” and be ok with it
  • Self improvement
    -Physically active and improve my self image
    -Exercise and healthy eating
  • Take more pictures!!! (of anything and everything) Take a picture at least once everyday. Photography is a a true passion of mine and I can’t wait to follow it.
  • Apply to as many schools as possible and choose one to attend (I want my BSN)
  • Be financially responsible
  • Take risks!

Cheers to NEW YEARS!!!

I am looking forward to looking back on my 2014 year and see how far I’ve come. 

Seems like everytime I do dishes the plumber has to come over…

Seems like everytime I do dishes the plumber has to come over…

1 hour of sleep and I’ve got a full shift ahead of me better believe I’m doubling up on my AWAKE Tea…  Super Nurse not tonight more like Sleepy Nurse -.- yawn!!!

1 hour of sleep and I’ve got a full shift ahead of me better believe I’m doubling up on my AWAKE Tea… Super Nurse not tonight more like Sleepy Nurse -.- yawn!!!

Aye carrambas!!! Wrong way on a one way street…

Aye carrambas!!! Wrong way on a one way street…